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September 18, 2007 lindsey87

Floating in confusion:

Who am I? What am I? This body which keeps my soul.
Lost in a void. Alone in a world of fantasy and a world of reality.
Where confusion starts. Why is it that I, who still stays alive, am here. Yet over there in another realm, another place, another time, here, there, everywhere.
A soul with nothing to serve.
Floating, walking in this life form.
Nothingness, is that the only pupose? Is it to live to look forward to death? Nothing seems alive anymore. No one around, no one over there, no one over here. Here in this cascading darkness yet light glows. Something familiar yet not. In the mirror I see myself staring at me. Is it me? Or is it from another realm? It looks like me but not me.
I am me. Myself. A person who seeks life in this reality, who forever walks in this fantasy. Who walks away from everyone. Hiding in a dark room. The doors sealed. Can anyone open the door to the light? To the reality? Until that happens, I shall remain here as I am. As myself. In the darkness.
I am a shadow of who I will never be, never hope to be. Alone in this shy pool of emptiness, An empty feeling in this void.